I feel like I'm getting cabin fever, working by myself in the middle of nowhere at a store that doesn't get a lot of business. I read a lot and sometimes I draw but mostly I feel restless. Also I haven't been sleeping a lot because I don't feel tired when I get home in the evening. I've been feeling super bitchy and irritable this week, and I don't want to feel like that. I think I just need to run around the block a few times or something when I get home in the evenings.
Also, my switch from veganism to vegetarianism has been awesome. It's been a while since I made the switch, I know, but there is just so much more food that I can eat now that is easy to make and doesn't taste like ass. Eggs, yogurt, and grilled cheese sandwiches are the best things ever.
I tried doing some digital paintings the other night using photo reference from Facebook. None of it is worth posting, since I haven't drawn from life in a long time and I never use photo reference. It felt good to make something that wasn't a cartoon drawing though, and it made me miss life drawing.
I finally went to Balzac's coffee a while back, I have to say it's pretty awesome. It makes me want to get back to my weekly Starbucks drawing sessions with Mac. I just wish I had somewhere to go for 3 hours every morning and do nothing but draw. Someplace with no distractions, where I could meet a friend and just talk about random shit for a couple of hours while drawing whatever comes to mind. Or a lifedrawing group with no instructor, $10 per person per class kind of deal, at a time that doesn't clash with my work schedule. It's just hard for me to be self-motivated, I need schedules and deadlines and people counting on me or else I just... don't do anything.